Face Value

I was wondering yesterday if we just take things too much at face value, you know? The current pre-election frenzy seems like a good example. We all want change (or at least those of us who do) so we gravitate to Obama. We want experience so we gravitate to Hillary (presumedly). We all want wisdom, so we gravitate toward McCain. Well, maybe that isn’t quite a good example but you get my point.

It seems many of us are guilty of not really looking too much below the surface. In way, I suppose that’s good, lest we see something we don’t like. Or maybe we are just too trusting and long to give people the benefit of the doubt. It’s possible.

Then there are the other types of face value. For example, you look around at your life and you see mountains of debt, worries and trouble and think this is your lot in life. You know that today will be repeated tomorrow and the tomorrow after that. You know this because yesterday was the same as today. But is it really? Are we really in such little control of our lives and the destiny of our futures?

I’ve been wondering a lot about this lately. I’ve been wondering what would happen if I just decided that I don’t buy that any more. You know? In fact, I took a bit of a leap of faith not that long ago. I had a job that for whatever reason was toxic to me. Literally making me ill and I honestly thought I’d end up with some horrible malady if I stayed on. I’m not really blaming anyone for this – things like this happen and really it was my own problem. So, my solution was to quit. I had some money put aside and felt I could just take some time off and cool down, chill out and figure out what to do next.

But a funny thing happened – I never got another job. I meant to. I intended to. And yet, in the end I didn’t. And sometimes I think about this and think, ‘jeez you are frickin loony tunes for doing this.’ I think that I ought to be scared and worried and feel all twisted up inside. Yet, I don’t. Yet, somehow I know that everything will be alright. I know that everything I need will somehow come to me – whether it be money, work, friends, food, whatever – somehow it will come my way.

How on earth could I feel this way? There are no visible signs in the universe that this makes any sense or that I am likely to survive with such a plan. Yet I have. My days are no longer filled with stress or worry, nor office politics. They are filled with educating myself, looking for new opportunities, writing, pursuing agents and publishers and so on. In short, I am actually finally pursuing my life, as I want it to be.

This is not to say that I don’t sometimes get worried or concerned. I do. I’m human, in a way it is our job to be worried and have dramas. Yet whenever I do, there is something inside me that says I’m doing the right thing, I’m going about this correctly. That I have good reason to believe in myself and my goals. And what’s more, that my goals are worthy and by being so they will sustain me somehow – they will bring to me whatever luck and serendipity that I need.

So, I’ve stopped accepting things at face value. I’ve looked deeply into my soul and found out what and who I am and I’m basically betting the ranch on it. I think at the very least, it will be quite the adventure.

WC

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19 thoughts on “Face Value

  1. Inspiring. And to think, if you never took that leap of faith, you would never have known the feelings you have right now. And I think you would never have pursued your dream as hard either. So it MUST have been the right thing to do because you sure sound like you feel you are on the right course. πŸ˜‰ I’m happy for you and I know you will get there. But all these little steps towards getting there are part of the process. Enjoy them too! It may as well be a fun journey!

    Teens,
    You’re such a great cheerleader – if we could bottle you, we could sell you by the vat. Thanks, honey.
    Annie

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  2. I’m so with you, I’m so there. But you already know that. πŸ˜‰ I have long since given up on taking things at face value.

    I hear ya, sistah! πŸ˜›
    Annie

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  3. Do you think that when we try not to take things at face value, there might be a tendency to efface value from them? It’s easy to say that one’s life isn’t so great and that maybe what it needs is a big change and a little faith, but sometimes we forget that it could be a whole lot worse. Faith is what it is because it doesn’t always work; you just never hear about when it fails.

    But I hope you don’t take this as me saying you’re crazy or you’re going to fail, because I don’t believe that. You’re talented and resilient so the odds are stacked in your favor. Just remember that it’s a calculated risk, and faith follows the laws of probability. (Just ask any blackjack player. For them, face value is always ten.)

    Hey QM,
    You know, your comment gave me pause – wasn’t sure if that was more of your dry humor or something else. But I’ll take your comments at face value and try to answer in the best way I can.

    When I say faith, I mean in myself. There isn’t one successful person on the planet that is successful because of luck. They are successful because of an unwavering faith in themselves and their goals. And because of that faith they were willing to weather the storm to bring those goals to fruition. I would venture to say that the times that faith doesn’t work is when the person abandons it – but then anything you abandon usually withers and dies, don’t you think?

    As to blackjack, never play the game – that’s about chance – unless you’re really good at counting cards. πŸ˜‰
    WC

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  4. I’m happy for you Annie! It’s so nice to know that you are doing well. Throw caution to the wind and follow your dreams is something you could never regret, I think. Not everyone does that. I believe too that we make our own destiny. We get stuck if we want to get stuck. If you want something bad enough, dream big, it will happen *but it’s all about how hard you are willing to work to get it. Elbow grease baby!
    And from reading your blog almost daily, I can see that you are up to your neck in elbow grease! You definitely do your work! That is suppose to be a compliment but somehow it didn’t sound too pretty! πŸ˜‰

    So, let me re-phrase. You are up to your gorgeous neck in hard work and it will pay off- not just monetarily either, rather in self satisfaction that money cannot buy! *But hey now, when you do strike it rich, don’t forget me, the little guy πŸ˜‰ Heh-heh-heh! *wink wink*

    LOL – don’t worry, Bella, I won’t forget you. How could I?
    Annie

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  5. Perhaps I’m just in an extra cynical mood, but I only mean to point out that there is a difference between having faith in yourself and your goals and having faith that the universe will see kindly to you because of it. Sure, it’s nice to think that by believing in yourself and by persevering that eventually you’ll be successful, but while I do not deny that the two are correlated, to think that the former necessarily begets the latter presumes some sort of justice in this world that I have yet to see. For any definition of success, there are plenty of people who are never successful, and what are you to tell them? That they just didn’t have enough faith in themselves, or that their goals weren’t virtuous enough, or that they didn’t put in enough effort? Those aren’t exactly the kinds of things you want to hear on your deathbed.

    I don’t mean to appear overly argumentative, so I apologize if I do. I certainly don’t believe that faith in one’s self isn’t a major, perhaps even a necessary, factor in success. But to think that it is also sufficient, that is, to have faith in faith, is like having ice cream for dinner: it may make you feel better, but that doesn’t mean it’s good for you.

    Well, enough of that. I’m gonna go get me some rocky road.

    Hey QM,
    I don’t think it presumes justice, I think it presumes logic. Persistance on a given path equals success. Unless of course you are trying to do something that you cannot, such as be a rock star when you can’t sing, a dancer when you don’t have feet.

    As to the people who aren’t successful, yes, sorry, but I’d have to say that that is a choice on their part. Whether they choose to give up or not try – then they do. And I don’t judge anyone one way or the other. We all have what is important to us and what we’re willing to fight for and what we ain’t. I think it boils down to that.

    As to the benevolency of the universe – I think it exists – but I also think it’s a matter of viewpoint. The old some people see the glass half full and others see it half empty.

    And also too, nothing ever came into being without it first being preceded by a thought, vision or dream. And if that isn’t faith, then I don’t know what is.

    Clearly, we aren’t going to agree on this, so maybe we should just agree to disagree?
    Annie

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  6. Best of luck to you on this endeavor into the great unknown.
    May God be with you as you pursue this new path.

    πŸ™‚

    We’re rooting for you all the way!

    Thanks, Matt. You’re a sweetie.
    Annie

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  7. Reading your post as well as the conversation with QM I think that’s pretty much how life plays out. On another level it’s a question around truth, at least to me it is. There is no such thing as ‘truth’ as it’s a man made concauction, the only truth that exist is our individual truth, what is our truth.
    I’m personally more of a calculated risk taker then a ‘lets worry about it when I get there’. Having said that, I do believe that it is a valuable lesson to loose it all. At that point energy/creativity etc doesn’t get ‘wasted’ on how to protect what we already have. Also one will realise how little that we really need in this life.

    I think many people never get to where you are at, because they don’t dare to try. It takes some real guts to do that. I always have this image of those successful enterpreneurs (I reallly don’t like that word for some reason….) being so completely blinded by the light of their vision that the obstacles and risks, although at times apparent, can’t extinguish their motiviation. They don’t want to do anything else.

    In my vision of you, you’re shining very bright right now πŸ˜‰ . Looks good!

    Hey Spaz,
    Well dear, I’m afraid I have to disagree with you on the truth aspect. I agree that we each have our own reality (personal truth) but there is truth in the world.

    Don’t know how shiny I may be right now – cuz it is scary – but so is working a job that you feel killing you every day – the only difference is that they give you money for it. See, there is an upside to everything. πŸ˜‰
    Hugs,
    Annie

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  8. Faith in yourself and in your own unfolding process is a beautiful thing πŸ™‚ Thanks for sharing that.

    Hey Gracie! How you been, girl?
    A

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  9. Hi WC,

    I haven’t taken things at face value since that first time I order something that looked absolutely fabulous on TV, but truned out to be a worthless piece of crap. Actually, that’s not quite true. I’m basically a trusting person, and it was the second piece of worthless crap that was a life changing event.

    As to change, I’m still wondering what it is that people in general are so unhappy about? Sure, gas prices are a bit high at the moment, but the stuff is going for eight or nine dollars a gallon in Europe! Also, sure, a lot of people tried to buy houses that they couldn’t afford, but there’s always been a sucker born every minute and, I would point out, at least these people had the opportunity to purchase a home, which is not something that is a given in many places around the world. I could go on, but, in my opinion, what we need to change is the awareness of our general public as to just how damn good they have it!

    the Grit

    You know Grit,
    I think that people choose how they feel about pretty much everything. If they want to see the bad they will, if they want to see the good, they will. And you can’t change a person’s mind until they are ready to let it be changed. Meanwhile, we’ll have fun popping wheelies in the field in your stealth porche. πŸ˜‰
    WC

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  10. I think faith could also be defined as believing and knowing that, no matter what the outcome, good or bad, you will be all right in the end. Even a failure gives one much to think about and learn from, perhaps more. As to your beliefs in yourself, I’m glad you have that, because not everyone does. I’m proud of you for going for your dreams and living your life the way you want to, not the way you may always have. Too many times people become stuck because of the fear associated with stepping out of a comfort zone. Sounds to me as though you were/are ready to make your life work on your terms, and for that, it is the right thing to do.

    Jennifer

    Hello my darling girl – you are somebody who really knows something about faith, eh? How’s that miracle boy of yours?

    Thanks for the vote of confidence.

    Hugs,
    Annie

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  11. I think we’re all just too damn busy these days and sometimes have no other choice than to take things at face value (not always good).
    We’re simply too damn tired to comprehend situations and ultimately just want to go to bed. (I don’t mean it’s a boring post)
    The cerebral wheels are definitely grinding on this one.
    ~m

    Well….here’s a thought: Maybe we’re too damn busy and tired because we’re paying attention to stuff that seeks only to make us busy and tired. πŸ˜‰
    Annie

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  12. This post expresses so much of what I’ve been dealing with. It sounds as though we’re on similar paths, Annie. It has at times been really scary for me. Sometimes I feel that I’ve done the right thing by getting out of the rat race, at other times I become terrified and think, “What in the hell am I doing?” I’m trying to be patient, and I learn and fine tune my methods as I go along. In a way, it all feels so right, in another way, I’m unsure as to whether it will work out. But really, I feel like I have no choice in the matter. My (lack of) physical health has pointed me in a new direction, one where I have to rely on myself for my success. I have to believe that it’s the one I’m supposed to be on, and that things will work out. This seems to be true for you too.

    I wish you loads of happiness and prosperity.

    I wish you the same and more. I agree, it can be darn scary and for every triumph, there is an equally strong feeling of worry – often unfounded but nonetheless there, yes? I think we’re both going to do fine. There is a heady freedom in the knowledge that you are choosing your own identity in the world – and can define yourself in whatever way you wish. I think we’ll both get so used to it that the idea of working at a ‘job’ will just be hilarious and totally unacceptable. Here’s hoping…
    Hugs,
    Annie

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  13. Hi Annie Love,

    How are you. It’s nice to be here. Great post and great replies, got me to thinking. I read something about success, and one of the comments said not all people were successful. Instantly I thought, How does one measure success, I loved your reply. Smiling.

    To be true to yourself in the face of adversity ( or not ) takes a lot of strength and courage.I’m so pleased you got rid of that job. Well done you. Yes! I see that as a blind leaf of faith sort of carry on. I think – but don’t quote me on this, when you begin the process of ‘being true to yourself’ blind leaps of faith arn’t really that blind. You kinda feel some sort of truth. Do you get me. For me blind leaps of faith are leaps of action to accessing that ‘One Truth’

    I’m sending you some beautiful sparkly fairy wings.
    Love this post Annie.
    Smiles & Hugs
    Diane πŸ™‚

    Hi Di!
    So happy to see you again. How’s it going in your part of the pond?

    You completely and utterly read me right on this one. Got into my head, my heart and my soul and just said what was there. It is a truth thang. Pure and simple. And I guess until you really want to see the truth, you believe that it isn’t there – but it really always is – funny, that, eh?

    Oh thank you so much for the sparkly wings – they were just what I wanted.

    Hugs and Love,
    Annie

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  14. I love your honest put-it-out-there quality! I just keep telling myself that any J-O-B I could get would not by definition mean that I’m doing something worthwhile. And so, without a J-O-B, I could possibly be doing something else which IS worthwhile. Sigh, if that makes any sense?…

    Hey C!
    Of course that makes sense. Look, jobs are like busses – if you miss one, another will come along in a few minutes. But not everybody has the guts to fight the dragons on their own. It is lonely and scary sometimes – truly – but with the exception of a temporary cash flow problem, I’ve never been happier. Isn’t that what life is all about? Being happy? Pursuing your dreams and heart’s desire? Otherwise we’re just drones that do as we’re told, aren’t we?

    Annie

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  15. i really appreciate what you’re saying here, Annie.
    And i think it’s wonderful.

    Imagine if we could all have such faith?
    How many dreams fulfilled?
    How much happier and at peace we would be?

    And how we could all realize what truly has weight, what should actually occupy our hearts and minds instead of bills and worry and regret and unhappiness?

    If each of us adopted the attitude you’ve described, wouldn’t our world improve in the most fundmental ways?

    Very thoughtful, Chica. i will take this to heart.

    You know, mi amiga – as scary as it is, there is something really wonderful about it. Aside from a temporary cash flow problem, I don’t think I’ve ever been happier in my life. I’m actually doing what I want to do in my life – for the first time. It’s very liberating – amazingly so.

    Hugs,
    Annie

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  16. Annie, this post is very inspiring.
    We don’t know what the future holds but we know who holds the future comes to mind here.

    I know you will be where you are supposed to be, doing what you were meant to do as only you can do it. Life is too short for us to hate going to work.. I am very proud of you for taking such a courageous step in a better direction and way.

    Hey Ange,
    You know, it does seem to be paying off, taking the risk I mean. I’ve gotten some steady work and I’m enjoying the self employment lifestyle. And it seems my temporary cash flow problem may indeed end up being temporary. It’s terrible to have to work a job you don’t like just for money. That should be against the law. You know?
    Hugs,
    Annie

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  17. Your impressive and unique content amazed me. You have written a perfect piece.

    Hello Calogero and welcome.

    Thank you for the kind words – I look forward to seeing you again.

    Writer Chick

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